Hello, my name is Heidi, and I'm a planner.
professional organizer, a profession which has plenty of planning charms of it's own. :)
I can honestly say that the Lord has been consistently raising the bar in my life in how I view goals and plans, since I dedicated my life to Him back in Jr. High and chose Proverbs 3:5-6 as my life verse.
I was content to divert from my planned career path in the entertainment industry upon meeting my future husband in my last year of college. He had a plan for his future that I was completely happy to align myself with, and I then had a wedding, a marriage and a whole new LIFE to plan for!
The first few years of our marriage went pretty much "according to plan" aside from the first few challenging jobs I held. No worry! On to the next item on the list of continuing hubby's education!
Through the pursuit of his masters degree (in Colorado), I weathered our first really big "change of plan" pretty gracefully. The career path he first had in mind had now morphed into something different that would require even more education. I was fully supportive of him pursuing this goal. After all, it was just another item on a new list to "check off" before *real life* could really begin, right?
It was also about this time that our first baby entered the picture.
I quickly learned that with these little people, things rarely (if ever) go according to plan! :)
My resolve to "trust in the Lord" was tested significantly as we moved to another new city and state with a newborn. He was so faithful to us in providing a home and a wonderful church family and friends.
Upon completing the P.h.D, with yet another baby added to our crew, we were in hopeful planning mode again. However, with the current state of the economy causing teaching positions to be very scarce, Proverbs 16:9 was also echoing in my mind;
We moved to Minneapolis this past August on a huge act of faith - hoping to find full-time employment and finally feel settled somewhere. Once again, we found a wonderful church family and a lovely (albiet still temporary) house to rent.
After 10 years of marriage we're still waiting and wondering exactly what our next step will be. It's a tough position to be in, especially when I see so many of my peers in a seemingly well established state of living. I think we all long to be "comfortable" and want a place to call "home" ...to feel secure financially... to be able to make big plans and goals for our life and feel like we can pursue them.
I'm learning I must choose daily to surrender all my dreams, goals and plans, no matter how lofty or basic. I am recognizing my hopes are only truly fulfilled in the Lord and what HE has planned in order to refine me more into his image in this earthly life.
"...Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
-Matthew 6:33-I'm also learning that no matter where we eventually call "home," it will really always be temporary...
"We are all exiles, always longing for home. We are always traveling, never arriving. The houses and families we actually inhabit are only inns along the way, but they aren’t home."
– Timothy Keller, The Prodigal God
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps."
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."